Don't let this get you down. Looks to me like you have friends you haven't even met!!! It WILL get better! You've just got to weather the storm.
Years ago I saw a TV show and this guy was talking about how he almost took his life because everything sucked. He went into his room and when he turned on the radio, The Beatles song "Here Comes The Sun" was playing. He thought that if he could just get through that night and see the sun rising, it would be OK. He did and it was.
I saw that show almost thirty years ago and I can't tell you how many times I've had things go wrong, and I thought about that kid and the courage he showed. Helped me alot. I think of him every time I hear that song. Thanks kid, I know your out there somewhere. Let us know how things go.
